Doubt is

Doubt is the fire that tempers a man's armor. It is that gauntlet that tests a man's character and separates the strong from the weak and extracts the best or worst from a person.

There is a lot of doubt surrounding me lately. I want to chalk it up to circumstances I am able to fully control because then I'd be taking responsibility and holding myself accountable for my actions rather than running and hiding like a little bitch.

I want to chalk it up to things I know I can control but in all honesty, I don't know why there is so much doubt. There is doubt cutting at me and I don't know why it is like this. I recognize that things are out of control but I don't know why or what they are exactly.

I have theories and ideas but nothing concrete. Nothing conclusive, nothing solid, nothing set in stone, nothing that I can be certain of and be able to take care of as a result. And this pisses me off.

I have simple expectations and that's what they are: simple expectations. They are nothing more than what is required and nothing out of the ordinary, nor are they asking the world or the moon or the world and the moon of someone.

But there will always be opposition to anything. This one of the things I will never understand. Is it laziness? Is it a wanton disrespect for things you are supposed to do? Is it because people are generally fucking stupid and vile creatures? I should hope the last one isn't the case.

All I can really do is grin and bear it because at the end of the day, I have no power and cannot control these things.

Yet.