"Father time" is often depicted as this decrepit old man with a long gray beard and staff. I used to accept this image without a second thought until it finally dawned on me that time flies and often kicks up a lot of dust in the process. So to imagine time as that old man seems to be inaccurate, right? But said image of the old man is more imposing and evocative of wisdom. A speeding rabbit would be insulting and riddled with naïveté, right? So the serious old man stands firm and strong and wise. One is less likely to mess with an elder given their experience and this sort of respect that they automatically draw from younger generations. At least, I think so. If I were to speak with someone who's 75 years old, I would most likely ask them their life story and listen as attentively as I could.
As to help me deal with the savage forward flow of time. You know, the one that doesn't care if you need to slow down. It'll just keep going; deaf, blind, mute, savage, uncaring, and wise.
It's a bit of drag when time just zooms past you leaving you wet and bewildered. Or in the dust and confused. But this probably has something to do with a boomerang effect in which actions and experiences repeat themselves in varying degrees of intensity, upon returning to a particular spot. You could say building up tolerance to certain events but that doesn't mean that things get easier; you just become wiser. You'll still feel when those events and experiences reoccur but you'll feel differently.
Time can wear the body down but it can't wear you down. That doesn't seem to make sense on the surface but beyond the surface it starts to make more sense. If you accept that the physical you is not the defining you. I can't say who the defining you is because that always changes
Time is a lot of things but certainly not an illusion. That decrepit old man doesn't have to be your master or a specter two steps behind you. It can be a source of motivation or that fire at the bottom of the rope that makes climbing up the rope much more urgent, or annoying.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
There's Blood Everywhere.
If I had a blood bank, that would be the motto. I think this is a better alternative than "Blood Storage Surplus", or something equally uninspired. "There's blood everywhere" would be memorable, to say the least. I imagine the public would be outraged at the motto. And possibly think I'm not taking blood seriously. Or that blood is literally everywhere- on the walls, ceiling, etc. But what business do I have running a blood bank? None. I would, however, have a sign that read: "No vampires allowed." Discriminatory? Maybe. Pragmatic? You're damn right. Likely to end my brief stint in the blood bank management business? Probably.
How does one deal with the end? Yes, "the end". That perpetually dreaded dark cloud looming above our heads. The inescapable fate that awaits everything and everyone, regardless of how much wealth and power has been obtained. "The only two certainties in life are death and taxes" says Mark Twain, or so the internet would have you believe; given that Gandhi was feuding with NWA. "Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks." Regardless, there is some truth in that quote. Everything has to end.
Dealing with the end really depends on the individual. I never really have a plan or strategy that extends beyond "deal with it" and "okay, this is real." It's a bit of a cop out because I don't have a specific answer but it's effective in the sense that I eventually get things done. That's how I am because the end tends to defy expectations. You expect one thing to end nicely and neatly but it's usually a bloodbath. Or the opposite could happen- a bloodbath is anticipated but you get red roses and blue skies such. As such, I'll match the end in that way- no discernible strategy or pattern. The method to this madness is to counteract the fact that the end is not always a tidy conclusion but an unpredictable mess, and the only way to deal with it is to present its polar opposite- staunch order, or match it with equal force- being as unpredictable as possible (or blank) in order to stand a chance of some sort. Which is really the only way to deal with things- match or overwhelm. Underwhelming never works to positive results.
You can pray for everything to be wrapped up nicely in a tidy box before dinner but chances are it ain't gonna happen. Nothing ever comes without a price. The degree of bloodshed will always vary on the circumstances. With me, I've always been indifferent, save for a few cases in which I was right in the middle of the bloodbath. There was blood everywhere, and tears. I tried my best to match the force of the end and I like to think I did relatively well but the reality is that my final reaction could best be summed up as "there's blood everywhere" with a cracking voice.
So, what can one gather from this rambling nonsense?
To match or overwhelm the end. How? You'll figure that out when you get to it. Will there be blood? Probably.
Hmm. I could just hang garlic nearby.
How does one deal with the end? Yes, "the end". That perpetually dreaded dark cloud looming above our heads. The inescapable fate that awaits everything and everyone, regardless of how much wealth and power has been obtained. "The only two certainties in life are death and taxes" says Mark Twain, or so the internet would have you believe; given that Gandhi was feuding with NWA. "Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks." Regardless, there is some truth in that quote. Everything has to end.
Dealing with the end really depends on the individual. I never really have a plan or strategy that extends beyond "deal with it" and "okay, this is real." It's a bit of a cop out because I don't have a specific answer but it's effective in the sense that I eventually get things done. That's how I am because the end tends to defy expectations. You expect one thing to end nicely and neatly but it's usually a bloodbath. Or the opposite could happen- a bloodbath is anticipated but you get red roses and blue skies such. As such, I'll match the end in that way- no discernible strategy or pattern. The method to this madness is to counteract the fact that the end is not always a tidy conclusion but an unpredictable mess, and the only way to deal with it is to present its polar opposite- staunch order, or match it with equal force- being as unpredictable as possible (or blank) in order to stand a chance of some sort. Which is really the only way to deal with things- match or overwhelm. Underwhelming never works to positive results.
You can pray for everything to be wrapped up nicely in a tidy box before dinner but chances are it ain't gonna happen. Nothing ever comes without a price. The degree of bloodshed will always vary on the circumstances. With me, I've always been indifferent, save for a few cases in which I was right in the middle of the bloodbath. There was blood everywhere, and tears. I tried my best to match the force of the end and I like to think I did relatively well but the reality is that my final reaction could best be summed up as "there's blood everywhere" with a cracking voice.
So, what can one gather from this rambling nonsense?
To match or overwhelm the end. How? You'll figure that out when you get to it. Will there be blood? Probably.
Hmm. I could just hang garlic nearby.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
They Say it Stings
They say "it" stings. It being defeat, loss, sorrow, misery, regret, longing, etc. All those seemingly negative emotions.
I try not to believe this school of thought. I do well in denying this until they catch up to me in some strange but profound shape or form. You only believe yourself to be invincible, untouchable, made of the strongest metals known in the universe, and all that until something happens. You think you're some sort of god but in reality, all it takes is a seemingly perfectly aimed and timed blow to shatter everything about you. (Or a freak accident, if you're not into anything that even resembles "fate" and such, and lean more towards coincidence). Then, you're a blubbering fucking mess of melted jello or some other shapeless mess. How does one deal with that? By admitting that everything hurts, in varying degrees mind you.
I say everything hurts, even the good and happy. Have you ever heard phrases like "I love you so much it hurts"? "I laughed so much my ribs hurt"? "My cheeks hurt from smiling so much?" Pain is inherent in everything we do and feel. There's just no escaping it. For the most part, it seems, the universe in which we live in is a binary universe. Meaning everything seems to come in pairs- light and darkness, "good" and "bad", male and female, young and old. Of course, there's no denying the gray areas in between in which debate and creativity thrive through some form of chaos and disorder. Just because there seems to be an abundance of binary influence does not rule out the possibility that the universe is in fact split in half, given our gray areas and faulty justice systems around the world. Even our idea of justice, in the Western world anyway, is shaky and gray. Killing someone in self-defense isn't as scorned as flat out murder though they both have the same result. So just like something will feel good, it will also sting.
There's no way of getting around it.
Everything hurts.
But accept that hope probably outweighs sorrow.
I try not to believe this school of thought. I do well in denying this until they catch up to me in some strange but profound shape or form. You only believe yourself to be invincible, untouchable, made of the strongest metals known in the universe, and all that until something happens. You think you're some sort of god but in reality, all it takes is a seemingly perfectly aimed and timed blow to shatter everything about you. (Or a freak accident, if you're not into anything that even resembles "fate" and such, and lean more towards coincidence). Then, you're a blubbering fucking mess of melted jello or some other shapeless mess. How does one deal with that? By admitting that everything hurts, in varying degrees mind you.
I say everything hurts, even the good and happy. Have you ever heard phrases like "I love you so much it hurts"? "I laughed so much my ribs hurt"? "My cheeks hurt from smiling so much?" Pain is inherent in everything we do and feel. There's just no escaping it. For the most part, it seems, the universe in which we live in is a binary universe. Meaning everything seems to come in pairs- light and darkness, "good" and "bad", male and female, young and old. Of course, there's no denying the gray areas in between in which debate and creativity thrive through some form of chaos and disorder. Just because there seems to be an abundance of binary influence does not rule out the possibility that the universe is in fact split in half, given our gray areas and faulty justice systems around the world. Even our idea of justice, in the Western world anyway, is shaky and gray. Killing someone in self-defense isn't as scorned as flat out murder though they both have the same result. So just like something will feel good, it will also sting.
There's no way of getting around it.
Everything hurts.
But accept that hope probably outweighs sorrow.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Housekeeping.
*Unless otherwise noted, all links will open in a new window (or tab, based on your browser settings and such.)
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About: Changes made to this blog will be logged there as best as possible. So, check back every now and then in case something throws you off completely. Changes won't be very drastic (very often) but will be noticeable.
______________________________________________________
Initial posting on May 3rd, 2011 to have a reference to link to in the sidebox.
______________________________________________________
Fairly significant and noticeable changes made to this blog will be kept track of here as best as possible.
So, check back every now and then.
______________________________________________________
Best viewed in the following browsers:
Chrome, Firefox, Safari, Opera. Be sure the window is on full view for best effect.
Note: Internet Explorer isn't recommended. It'll make you scroll left to right to see everything, unless you zoom out. It'll make the text smaller but you'll get to see everything.
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CHANGES:
January 20, 2015
• Actually removed the +/- feature. Nobody does it.
• Made slight adjustments to the fonts used.
April 9, 2013
• Added a new link to the perpetual links of interest box. Follow my friend as she documents her wanderings around Los Angeles. The Itty Bitty Gadabout
February 28, 2013
• Added a new tag: NIN for Nine Inch Nails related material
December 15, 2012
• Added a followers box in the hopes of making it easier for people to follow this blog and the sporadic writing presented.
November 25, 2012
•Changed "Quote of the Week" to just "Quote" because I really suck at updating on a weekly basis.
July 15, 2012
• Changed the labels because they weren't redirecting correctly.
A+ is now Aa
P+ is now Pp
S+ is now Ss
• Activated all labels because I wasn't allowed to pick and choose anymore apparently.
May 20th, 2012
• Changed the URL. Why? Because this way it should be faster for people to type in the address bar and keep in mind.
April 8, 2012
• Added label F to the Labels boxes. Because I started a series of posts on fortune cookie fortunes.
February 17, 2012
• Reinstated the comments feature because "why not?"
• Changed the layout in the interests box.
January 26, 2012
• Removed the Anti-SOPA stuff. Fuck SOPA.
• Toyed with a new layout scheme, ended up altering the original scheme. I would have restored the original template but I forgot to save it. Bummer.
December 29, 2011
• The following labels have been removed from the Labels box.
- Bottle
- A
- A+
A and A+ don't get much attention right now. Bottle is old now.
The content in A and A+ and Bottle will still be available.
• Updated the Links of Interest box.
- Changed the Astronomy Picture of the Day thumbnail.
November 18th, 2011
• Removed Twitter feed.
November 8th, 2011
• Moved the Labels box to the left (my left). Efficiency for space.
• Edited Twitter feed widget.
November 2nd, 2011
• Tested Internet Explorer, didn't work out very well. Made a note of it in the browsers list above.
November 1st, 2011
• Added a Twitter feed. Mostly to keep track of my Movember progress and serve as a reminder to readers to help out however they can. Thanks.
October 15th, 2011
• Removed the "Art (in Various Forms) Worth Checking Out" box for the time being. To help the page load faster. The contents have been transferred to the "Links of Interest ∞" box.
• Moved the Housekeeping box.
August 15th, 2011
• Consolidated the (stuff) Worth Checking Out boxes into one.
• Moved the Links of Interest box to the left side
• Reduced the number of posts on the main page to 4.
July 16th, 2011
• Removed the commenting feature. Nobody does it anyway.
• Removed the +/- option of the reactions.
July 8th, 2011
• Added the "About" at the top of this entry.
• Truncated the description for the sidebox.
June 21st, 2011
• Started using labels. Hopefully this will help with finding specific types of posts more quickly. Having to look through the whole blog is going to take a while and you've probably got better things to do, right? Anyway, the label system.
For example:
P+ corresponds with poems I've shared from other authors.
P for my poems.
A+ artwork by other artists.
A for my artwork, though in a classroom setting my artwork would receive a B or less. Ha.
S+ for stories by other authors (will most likely end up posting public domain stuff)
S for my own stories.
and so forth. I'll make changes accordingly.
• If I delete posts- poetry, art, stories, etc. The main reason will be because it's not in public domain (and I don't want to get in trouble for it). If anything, I'll link to the site instead.
• Added a box called Labels to assist in the quest for finding particular types of posts more quickly.
• Removed the box "Bottle" because I used the labels for finding the individual parts faster. (Why didn't I think of that before?)
June 13th, 2011
• Removed the box "This grabbed my attention"; if there's anything that grabs my attention, I'll post an entire entry for it. This saves the reader the trouble of having to check through the blog for the slightest change in said box (which is now removed).
June 9th, 2011
• Edited content in side modules- books, music, links of interests. Trimmed the lists down. Changes varied.
May 5th, 2011
• Tested browsers again, except for IE. Added Opera to the list.
May 3rd, 2011
• Added some extra boxes
- Links of interest
- Attention grabbing image
- Quote of the week
- Housekeeping / changes log
• Updated content in pre-existing boxes
• Fixed a few broken links
• Organized boxes in different places
• Altered layout and design to make better use of space
• Widened blog in general- for space efficiency issues
• Changed some fonts for novelty factor and a change of pace.
______________________________________________________
On to-do list:
• New color scheme in general (?)
• New template (?)
About: Changes made to this blog will be logged there as best as possible. So, check back every now and then in case something throws you off completely. Changes won't be very drastic (very often) but will be noticeable.
Initial posting on May 3rd, 2011 to have a reference to link to in the sidebox.
Fairly significant and noticeable changes made to this blog will be kept track of here as best as possible.
So, check back every now and then.
Best viewed in the following browsers:
Chrome, Firefox, Safari, Opera. Be sure the window is on full view for best effect.
Note: Internet Explorer isn't recommended. It'll make you scroll left to right to see everything, unless you zoom out. It'll make the text smaller but you'll get to see everything.
CHANGES:
January 20, 2015
• Actually removed the +/- feature. Nobody does it.
• Made slight adjustments to the fonts used.
April 9, 2013
• Added a new link to the perpetual links of interest box. Follow my friend as she documents her wanderings around Los Angeles. The Itty Bitty Gadabout
February 28, 2013
• Added a new tag: NIN for Nine Inch Nails related material
December 15, 2012
• Added a followers box in the hopes of making it easier for people to follow this blog and the sporadic writing presented.
November 25, 2012
•Changed "Quote of the Week" to just "Quote" because I really suck at updating on a weekly basis.
July 15, 2012
• Changed the labels because they weren't redirecting correctly.
A+ is now Aa
P+ is now Pp
S+ is now Ss
• Activated all labels because I wasn't allowed to pick and choose anymore apparently.
May 20th, 2012
• Changed the URL. Why? Because this way it should be faster for people to type in the address bar and keep in mind.
April 8, 2012
• Added label F to the Labels boxes. Because I started a series of posts on fortune cookie fortunes.
February 17, 2012
• Reinstated the comments feature because "why not?"
• Changed the layout in the interests box.
January 26, 2012
• Removed the Anti-SOPA stuff. Fuck SOPA.
• Toyed with a new layout scheme, ended up altering the original scheme. I would have restored the original template but I forgot to save it. Bummer.
December 29, 2011
• The following labels have been removed from the Labels box.
- Bottle
- A
- A+
A and A+ don't get much attention right now. Bottle is old now.
The content in A and A+ and Bottle will still be available.
• Updated the Links of Interest box.
- Changed the Astronomy Picture of the Day thumbnail.
November 18th, 2011
• Removed Twitter feed.
November 8th, 2011
• Moved the Labels box to the left (my left). Efficiency for space.
• Edited Twitter feed widget.
November 2nd, 2011
• Tested Internet Explorer, didn't work out very well. Made a note of it in the browsers list above.
November 1st, 2011
• Added a Twitter feed. Mostly to keep track of my Movember progress and serve as a reminder to readers to help out however they can. Thanks.
October 15th, 2011
• Removed the "Art (in Various Forms) Worth Checking Out" box for the time being. To help the page load faster. The contents have been transferred to the "Links of Interest ∞" box.
• Moved the Housekeeping box.
August 15th, 2011
• Consolidated the (stuff) Worth Checking Out boxes into one.
• Moved the Links of Interest box to the left side
• Reduced the number of posts on the main page to 4.
July 16th, 2011
• Removed the commenting feature. Nobody does it anyway.
• Removed the +/- option of the reactions.
July 8th, 2011
• Added the "About" at the top of this entry.
• Truncated the description for the sidebox.
June 21st, 2011
• Started using labels. Hopefully this will help with finding specific types of posts more quickly. Having to look through the whole blog is going to take a while and you've probably got better things to do, right? Anyway, the label system.
For example:
P+ corresponds with poems I've shared from other authors.
P for my poems.
A+ artwork by other artists.
A for my artwork, though in a classroom setting my artwork would receive a B or less. Ha.
S+ for stories by other authors (will most likely end up posting public domain stuff)
S for my own stories.
and so forth. I'll make changes accordingly.
• If I delete posts- poetry, art, stories, etc. The main reason will be because it's not in public domain (and I don't want to get in trouble for it). If anything, I'll link to the site instead.
• Added a box called Labels to assist in the quest for finding particular types of posts more quickly.
• Removed the box "Bottle" because I used the labels for finding the individual parts faster. (Why didn't I think of that before?)
June 13th, 2011
• Removed the box "This grabbed my attention"; if there's anything that grabs my attention, I'll post an entire entry for it. This saves the reader the trouble of having to check through the blog for the slightest change in said box (which is now removed).
June 9th, 2011
• Edited content in side modules- books, music, links of interests. Trimmed the lists down. Changes varied.
May 5th, 2011
• Tested browsers again, except for IE. Added Opera to the list.
May 3rd, 2011
• Added some extra boxes
- Links of interest
- Attention grabbing image
- Quote of the week
- Housekeeping / changes log
• Updated content in pre-existing boxes
• Fixed a few broken links
• Organized boxes in different places
• Altered layout and design to make better use of space
• Widened blog in general- for space efficiency issues
• Changed some fonts for novelty factor and a change of pace.
On to-do list:
• New color scheme in general (?)
• New template (?)
Nothing Makes Sense
Nothing in nature makes sense.
As a result, we try to make it make sense. We add our own meaning and ideas onto an observation until it is widely accepted and difficult to dispute and prove otherwise 500 years later. Or the sense that truly is exists beyond our present reach that another 500 years of study won't make a damn difference. Or will it?
Depends on the intensity of study. To skim over and be there sometimes just isn't enough.
Intervention, extrapolation, inference, attempting!
As a result, we try to make it make sense. We add our own meaning and ideas onto an observation until it is widely accepted and difficult to dispute and prove otherwise 500 years later. Or the sense that truly is exists beyond our present reach that another 500 years of study won't make a damn difference. Or will it?
Depends on the intensity of study. To skim over and be there sometimes just isn't enough.
Intervention, extrapolation, inference, attempting!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
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