It's becoming increasingly difficult to combat this wave of apathy that has pulled me under the surface. I'm not drowning but I'm not exactly fighting like hell to get back to land. There are times when I want to do nothing more than sleep or just sit around doing nothing. This is not a reason for me not having written anything substantial. That is because I really have been too damn busy with other things to dedicate more time and energy here. Rest assured, my bizarre brand of apathy is not affecting my writing here. If anything, I wish I could have more to write about other than the inane bullshit I spew and the horrifically awful prose and poetry that makes its way here every now and then.
Everything else seems to have been washed away. There are things that I used to feel so passionate about and now they're just part of the faded background. I'm finding it harder and harder to want to connect with these things on a level that goes beyond the surface. Beyond the level of feeling that it's just another chore to be brushed aside.
Oh to want to want to do things rather than half-ass them or not want to do anything.
Maybe I'm just bored of the cycle in which I find myself day after day. It's natural to be bored but to become apathetic? That doesn't seem right, does it?
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