The Reflection Strikes Back?!

It is often easy to let yourself do whatever you want and not question yourself in the slightest. And thus the seeds of tyranny are planted. However, when you question yourself, you win. And the seeds of tyranny are unable to sink their roots into the earth. Of course, this is an odd thing for me to write about because I often do something to the contrary: do what I think feels right without questioning myself. Weeds cover windows and doors. And that in turn explains why I'm always left scratching my head, ashamed. Oblivious.

Because fighting yourself is difficult is probably why this is one of the greatest victories one can ever achieve. The battle against the self is not to say that you have to loathe and abuse yourself in order to be great. You have to know when to hold back and control yourself or even do something out of character, in order to keep yourself from fucking up completely. Why is this important? Why is this great? Why does this matter?

It's important that you learn that you can't always get what you want and that you have to grow up. As such, you have to fight with yourself in order to learn about yourself. What you can and cannot do, what you know and don't know, and things like that.

This is great because at the core, everyone is some kind of narcissist... in the sense that everyone is full of some sort of self-love, however much it may or may not be. To fight against yourself and realize that you love yourself enough to disagree, it leads to progress. How difficult is it to harm something you care about? Whether it's tackling a friend who is like a brother to you? But you do it for their own good, not just because they're drunk out of their fucking mind.

This is a matter of relatively great importance because I have to repeat myself. The most difficult thing in the world is harming something you care about and love. The self is that: something you care about and love. Once you can say, "No, I will not allow this to hurt me." and control yourself, you'll be able to go on and do greater things.

Hmm.